This past week we were at Epcot (posts to come, of course) and did an interactive thing called “Turtle Talk with Crush.” Crush is the turtle in Finding Nemo…anyway…Kye got selected from the crowd to talk to Crush and Crush asked to talk to us as well. He asked us about our children and asked me a question that has been on my mind ever sense. He asked why do I love being a mom?
My answer was simply that I love how much my children love me and how much I love them. Once I finished answering I thought about how cheesy that answer was and tried to come up with what I should have said as an answer. I’ve been thinking about it and thinking about it. I’ve been a mom for FOUR years yet I’ve never taken the time to reflect on WHY exactly I love being a mom. Leave it to a computer animated turtle to get me thinking deep 😉
The more I’ve thought about it, the more I realize that the answer I gave IS how I really feel. I love so many aspects of being a mom, but more than anything it comes down to the simple thing. Love. There is NO other love like that of a child and mother. None. Yes, I love Zach. I adore him and I am so thankful for his love. But love with a spouse isn’t the same as love with a child. You can love someone else other than your spouse. If something were to happen to me I’m sure Zach would find love again eventually. He would always have a special place for me but he could love someone again in a similar way that he loves me. If something were to happen to one of our children though? That love is NOT something you can replace. It is unconditional like nothing else.
Kye and Britt (and future babies) could grow up and make all kinds of choices. They could choose to do something horrible, but my love for them will never waiver. Yes, I’m sure there will be many times I will be disappointed in them and their choices, but I will love them just the same as I love them now. As I loved them the day they were born. As I will love them when they are grown and have children of their own. It’s unbreakable. Untouchable. Incomparable.
It’s a love that you truly cannot define until you have your own children. You can’t relate to it. You can’t understand it. It is the most amazing and fulfilling emotion I have ever experienced. Up until becoming a mother I never really felt that I had a “talent.” I can’t sing or draw or do anything special like that. I’m surely not an athlete or some great speaker or something. Through becoming a mother I found my passion. My talent. My true identity and who I was always destined to be. I cannot imagine myself as anything other than a mom. It is the BEST gift I could have ever received. It is a role that has given me complete fulfillment and has made me whole.
This past year I feel like love has been a theme for me. Especially in learning what unconditional love truly means. I have learned that sometimes people who you think are supposed to love you unconditionally won’t and sometimes people who don’t “have” to love you at all will love you in a way that you wish those who “should” love you did. Having Kye gave me the gift of motherhood. It brought about that passion, drive, and fulfillment in my heart. Having Brittlynn made me really realize what unconditional love is. She made us a family and gave me a determination to be the BEST mother to my children that I can possibly ever be. I love them so wholly and so completely and know, without a bit of doubt, that nothing will EVER change that.
So as silly as my answer of “how much they love me! and how much I love them!” may sound, it’s true. I love the love I get to experience as a Mom. I love the cuddles. The kisses. The tears that only Mommy can mend. I love that I know them in a way that no one else ever will. I love looking at them and remembering how it felt to feel them kick inside my belly. To bring them into the world. To see all their firsts through life and to cherish each moment with them. I love each and every aspect of parenthood. I’m so, so blessed to be a mother. I’m grateful beyond words that God gave me my sweet babies and that He provided me with such a powerful love that I now know.
So today I’m focusing on that love. Focusing on my blessings. On my talents and on the greatest gift I’ve ever been given: the opportunity to be a MOM!
Happy Mother’s Day to ALL of the Mommies! I hope each of you are enjoying your sweet babies today too!