I am almost titled this post “From Porn Star to School Girl” but I thought that might be a little inappropriate…
After drying-up it took a while for my breasts to be fully dry. One still leaked a little milk from it every now and then but that has stopped. My nipples continue to be pretty itchy and look scaly. It makes sense if you think about it. The milk ducts are like an open wound that is now healing!
I’m adjusting to life post-nursing. I don’t miss actual nursing one bit! Ever! It’s not that I didn’t love it while I did it, because I did, it’s just that it was truly time and I’m enjoying not being “pregnant” for the first time since May of 2008!!!! It was awesome to wash all my maternity bras and pack them away!
What’s not awesome though is how in about a weeks time my boobs went from sexxxxy to barely there. I was wearing a 36D and now my 34C (pre-pregnancy size) is on the tightest it can go and I have to keep tightening the straps all the time. I went to Victoria’s Secret to get measured and she said it can take 3 months for them to decide on a true size but that I was measuring at a 36C. She’s so full of it!!! There is NO WAY!!! If my 34C doesn’t fit then a 36C would fall off! I actually tried on dresses for my brother’s upcoming rehearsal dinner and the only strapless I have is a 36C and Zach laughed because the underwire was waaaaaay under the bottom of my boob!!!
Before getting pregnant I LOVED my smallish chest. I thought they looked great in clothes and I could wear “sexier” stuff without looking too sexy. When my breasts got bigger (and bigger and bigger) I didn’t like them. They made it tough to dress the way God wants me to (conservatively) and were just in the WAY. Well, now that they are gone I miss them dearly. I feel so insecure!!! I don’t feel attractive. I feel like my flat chest makes me look fat (as big boobs make your stomach look more flat and flat boobs make your stomach look bigger, don’t you think?). I for SURE don’t feel sexy. Zach swears he finds me just as attractive but c’mon what guy doesn’t LOVE a girl with big ladies?!? I’m sure he misses them too but he’d never admit that (he’s a smart guy).
I think it’s so crazy how much having a baby changes your body. I just didn’t expect THIS many changes. I had Kye 10 months ago and I’m still changing. It makes me think about Crissy, who is pregnant with her third baby in three years! She was nursing the first one when she got pregnant with the second one and was nursing (I think right?) the second one when she just got pregnant with the third. What are HER boobs gonna do when (well if haha) she stops having babies?!? I kinda get why she’s having them all back to back. While it doesn’t really give her body a chance to fully recover, it does delay dealing with baby weight, boob loss, and baby bangs! Whereas I plan to spread out all our kids so that means I’ll FINALLY get my body back only to turn around and get pregnant again!!!
I’m interested to see if my chest goes back to normal. I know the lady said to give it 3 months before investing in a new bra but Zach and I are going to Jacksonville on Saturday for a fun day-date together and I plan to get re-sized at the Victoria’s Secret there then buy a new bra. I just can’t live with this one being too big! We’ll see what size they say I am…I can’t even remember the last time I wore a B, maybe when I first started wearing bras (in the 2nd or 3rd grade! haha!). I can’t possibly be a B? Can I?
UPDATE: I wrote this post but forgot to post it haha! We went to Jacksonville and I got re-sized and I AM a 34C. The girl said that my old bras are well, old. They were so stretched out that they no longer fit haha! Luckily I had some coupons so I bought a new bra (Very Sexy style and it’s awesome! Z said it made a BIG difference!) as well as a strapless one (also the Very Sexy style). I hate having to always buy nude ones! A lady in front of me checked out with a bunch of sexy printed and colored ones and I got 2 nudes. BORING! But it’s practical and I can’t see spending that much money on something I can’t wear with everything ya know? Maybe someday…at least I have a bra that FITS right now! We’ll see if the coming months bring any changes, I honestly think this size will be my size until I get pregnant again!