Cry Baby

I know that pregnancy means raging hormones and I know that crying at the drop of a hat is expected…but I still feel the need to share my first crying breakdown moment.

I think all pregnant women probably watch A Baby Story on TLC…I’ve been watching millions of them! They are really educational with what will happen in the delivery room and different complications I could experience.

Of course I have cried watching many of them (I used to cry when I watched EVERY episode but it wore off after like 30 of them), especially when the baby is born! The parents’ reactions are so awesome and just the idea that the same thing will be happening to us is so moving!

Friday was my worst pregnancy day so far and I spent the entire day watching tv. Well this one episode came on about a miracle baby where the mom has had cancer and was told she wouldn’t be able to get pregnant but then she did! Sadly the cancer came back and it was difficult to watch her deal with the cancer side effects as well as her pregnancy. It really made me think about how I can’t complain one bit!

The baby was born perfectly fine and the episode ended like every other one except at the end it showed a picture of the mom and said the episode was dedicated to her and showed the dates of her life. I totally lost it.

Seeing that message at the end was awful! But it just made me think about Kelly, a good friend of Wes and Carolyn’s at the Student Center, who has a similar story. She has a 6 year old, had cancer, was in remission, got pregnant, has a 5 month old baby and is now told that the cancer is back, its spread, and she has 6 to 12 months to live. Unlike the Baby Story lady she does not have a husband to help her and is having to do it all on her own.

I just can’t imagine knowing that I wouldn’t get to spend time with my children, that my children wouldn’t even probably remember me. And for that poor baby to never know his mommy! It’s so horrible and so sad that I sat there on the couch for over 30 min crying. Actually, not just crying bawling.

I am keeping Kelly in my prayers all the time and hope others will too. Miracles do happen through the power of prayer and I just hope something works out for this family…

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