I know so often when mother’s become pregnant with their second baby they worry about loving that baby as much as their first born. That first baby fills your entire heart so much, how can there be room for more?
For me, I didn’t have that fear. If anything I love Britt in a more intense way than I loved Kye when he was first born. Because I understood what that little baby in my arms would bring to our lives. The joy and the blessings we would know because of her.
I look at them and I am blessed. One would naturally think that with each child you’d add to the blessings in your life. It’s so true and it’s beyond what I could have ever anticipated. I may only have two children, but I am more than “doubly blessed.”
I am blessed by each of them as individuals. Quality alone time with Kye is so wonderful. Talking to him and learning about his thoughts and feelings. Cuddling and holding his sweet hands. I savor the moments I get alone time with Britt as well. Tickling her and soaking in her precious laughter. Reading books and playing with toys just the two of us. I am blessed by both of them on their own.
But I am blessed even more by seeing them together. The bond they share brings me more joy than anything else in this world. It is something I never considered. I knew I wanted many children so they will be able to have each other, but I never realized how much seeing them in that bond would mean to me.
Watching them put on special shows and performances
Seeing the way Britt looks up to Kye and thinks everything he does is so cool
Hearing Kye speak so sweetly to her and always offer her to share with his toys
Enjoying the sound of laughter and joy that always fills our home
In having Kye I found a love I never had known: the love a mother has for her child. In having Britt I found a deeper love that I didn’t know could exist so instantly and so deeply. In having them both I found a love that is so happy and pure and true and it is a daily reminder to me of the blessings I have in my life.
Being a parent is a selfless job where you have to give and give and then when you feel like you’ve given all you can, you give more. Seeing their smiles and receiving their kisses is more than enough “pay back.” The love they give me is more than I could ever ask for or possibly need.
I am a better person because I have my children. I am a better version of myself and I am made whole by fulfilling my role as a mother. Even on days when I’m counting down until bedtime, I never stop being thankful for them or for appreciating all that they are and all that they bring into this world.
I know that I am beyond doubly blessed and I look forward to the day when we add more children to our family. I cannot wait to see how those babies will bless all of us as well. I can’t wait to see Kye with a brother and/or Britt with a sister. I can’t wait to see how three are together and the dynamic of four etc. Each stage in life has so much good to offer and right now I’m savoring my two blessings and am thankful so, so much for them.
