Like the title? Haha I still laugh like a little kid when I write the word “breast.” Anyway, semi-sad news. I’m 100% done breastfeeding as of today 🙁
My plan was to nurse Kye for 6 months and I nursed him for 9 months and 18 days. I actually wasn’t ready to stop nursing for our morning session yet. I was fine with dropping the night one as he’s so squirmy and ready to play that it’s a hassle for us both for him to nurse. But first thing in the morning? He’s so sweet and loving! I really enjoy that time together.
The past couple nights though Kye hasn’t been sleeping well. He’s been waking up at random times and seems hungry to me. This morning he was up at 6:15 and wouldn’t go back to sleep. I ended up nursing him at 6:45 (usually it’s around 7:15) and that’s when it hit me. Maybe he’s waking up because he’s not getting enough to eat all day. Maybe I’m not producing milk like I should be for this feeding. I decided to test my theory by heating up 4 oz of formula right after he nursed. Yup, he drank it all.
I did cry while I was nursing him a little bit. I just like planning things and I knew it’d probably be the last time I nursed my sweet boy and it made me sad. I know most of you are thinking that I nursed for soo long (maybe longer than some would be comfortable with) so it shouldn’t be a big deal but it is sad. It was also sad because our last time was not a happy time. Kye was very fussy since he’d been up so much in the night and had a runny nose from all his crying. Yesterday was a super sweet nursing time together so I’m going to try to focus on that.
I wasn’t as sad as I thought I might be though. I think it’s because I did go for so long. I know I gave him the best thing I could and for as long as I could. I also know that he’ll still be getting 2 feedings a day of breast milk until he’s either close to or right at one year old. I didn’t cry many tears and I don’t think Kye will have any issues with us moving on. I don’t even think my body will be much affected by the change. So far I’ve hardly leaked or had any discomfort with any of the weaning process.
I’m sad to see it all go but it’s time and I’m ready as is Kye. I’m interested to see what happens to my body now that I’m finished! Will my breasts be 2 saggy lumps? Will they get bigger? Smaller? Will I gain weight? Lose weight? It should be interesting! I’m going to give it a few weeks then go to Victoria’s Secret to get measured! I’m also about to call the dr. b/c I can get on the REAL birth control now!
Overall I’m so proud of myself for overcoming all my obstacles and achieving my goal. I honestly don’t know if I’ll ever nurse this long again but it all went exactly how it was supposed to go this time and I’m so thankful that I never gave up!